Once this pack of Next Menthol is done, it could be my last.
I actually didn't feel that bad surviving on 4 sticks for the whole of today. I have some Nicorette mints with me, and that could probably see me through the rough times.
Along with this nicotine cessation, I also turned down an invitation for a party this Wednesday at the bar I used to frequent at. God knows how many thousands of dollars I have spent, and people I have introduced to and met at the bar. I think the real reason why, is because I am no longer single. I know that if I am drinking somewhere, there's a high chance of men chatting me up. And I don't really need that when I am no longer single. Surprisingly, now that I am with J, I received a few calls and messages from my male friends who showed interest. Giving me advices and opinions on why J isn't the best for me, subtly trying to make me think that they're better candidates.
I am sure women experience this thing, when as soon as you're off the market, suddenly you're more desired. Fuck off - I don't need this bullshit. I just told them thanks for their best wishes, and I can decide on my own.
I can see right through you.
I am starting to apply for other job positions in Media, Advertising and Marketing sectors. I like my current job, but if I am thinking about the salary + benefit package, and the career path, it's just not going to help me achieve my goals in the industry I am in. It's rather stagnant for now. I am holding on the job for now, but at the same time, yeah, I am applying for others. If I get lucky, it'll be a good start and a probable pay increase. More responsibilities are fine - as long as there's someone to teach me, I am all good. Definitely pride myself as being a fast learner and a motivated person.
If I can now think about improving myself, it'd be great. Learning a new language will be awesome. It'd be sweet to learn Japanese or Indonesian. Even though I can speak Malay, it's not the same as Bahasa Indonesia, and now with the market growing, it could be the next big thing. I should look into this, seriously. And the Japanese market is always attractive, but the possibility of working for a Japanese company is just not easy if you're a woman. Yep, it's 2014, but nope, they're still very male-oriented in general.
There's a recruitment drive for cabin crew for Silk Air, but come to think about it, I am just not keen on flying around for a job, when I'd love to be with my loved ones here.
Trolley dolly isn't really a step-up from what I am doing now.
Ah god, I miss sex.
He's coming back next Tuesday or Friday (depending on his boss' direction) and I HOPE IT'S TUESDAY, COME ON.
PS: Semi-addicted to the Stardom: Hollywood game, but at least it helps to take my mind off smoking and drinking.