This is going to be quite an open/hard-hitting journal entry, so bear with me. Just in a pissy mood, and it will make me feel better writing about it than to impose it onto my best friends or whoever on my speed dial.
I am not too sure if people who know me here is aware of this, but I am an atheist. And I don't believe in praying. Sometimes, I do say things like, "Oh God, I pray that you'd do something about it etc" but it was more like a force of habit. In actuality, I meant to say, "Stop fucking praying, and PUT IN THE EFFORT, if you wish to see a change! Ain't nobody's gonna help you with your shit, you fucking lazy bastard!"
Goddamnit, I hate you whining, selfish, irresponsible bastards. You don't fail in life because "God" fails you or that you are "unlucky", or that "He has a plan for you." Why not have more belief that you are in charge of your life and not leave it up to other people to steer the direction of where your boat (aka life) is going?! (And no, I don't hate them as a person - just hate those traits that are sort of self-sabotaging!)
I think it just boils down to one thing - laziness and/or succumbing to the feeling of "powerlessness". I try not to waste my time around these people but of course sometimes I have to deal with them, and it just frustrates me so much that they blame everything but themselves. Seriously, you suck.
I had to go for some food tasting, for work, the first thing in the morning today. I have never faced so many plates of bread, pastries and cakes in my life like this. It was kinda intoxicating - so much food, and so little
temptation. Gimme a plate of steak or sashimi or fried chicken and I'd be more excited, but not these fluffy pastries...
However, my friends were salivating over these, but I think overall, most people have sweet tooth so... there.
I could not look rude, so I had a bite of the ham and cheese sandwich, and the croque monsieur. They were alright, but I was sitting directly in front of the cakes and they kinda killed my appetite. Why am I so fucking weird?
The coffees, however, were fantastic. God damn.
I had a huge strong brew, no sugar no milk, and smoked a couple of cigarettes. Ahhh, bliss.
I am feeling so stressed out. I have to think of targets to approach for sponsorship deals for a Halloween event that we will be partnering with. However, not many brands here, like to be associated with "horror" or the "supernatural" (because Asians are superstitious
). We have a couple of months to sell this package, but I have not come up with any ideas for who to approach.
There are some brands that we aren't able to go for, due to conflict of interests etc, but now I am thinking - M.A.C., Illamasqua, Virgin Active, Phillips (for fluorescent bulbs? LOL), battery companies, hair salons, Vivienne Westwood, various candy companies etc. It's not easy to secure a meeting... so I really gotta crack my head to think of ways to approach them.
If you have any ideas, please feel free to share them.
As always, do share your comments if you have any and we'll have a good discussion, anyhow!
Hope you are well and I look forward to FRIDAY tomorrow!!