Ah okay. So it is just my PMS. Things are great and settled now between me and John.
The poor thing had to work even when he was on vacation, due to his douchebag boss... but eh, that's life.
I feel much better to know that he had been busy with work, than to be busy with other things instead.
I think I am learning to see that in our relationship, I am basically the one leading, and he's the one doing the following. It's the same for all relationships... as much as we'd like to think it's not, there will always be one partner who is more assertive than the other. I shouldn't have been too blind to see that - after all, he's always open to my suggestions... but I'm always the one to influence/steer the decision because I think we have similar tastes in things.
So maybe now if I want him to text me more, I should make the first move and the rest will follow. The last thing I want him to think, is that I don't care and that is why I have been quiet.
I mean, between me and him, I am the one who is more intense and emotional.
When I asked him before what he liked most about me, character-wise, he said that he likes that I am "bossy" which made me go "WHAAAT!" but he quickly replied, "who doesn't like to be bossed around a little, now and then?
I told him that I'd work on it, and won't be as "assertive" as I am... and I refuse to be called bossy but to be honest, I am.
I know I am. I want things done immediately, if I can. I don't accept excuses for the most part, and I dunno... I am working on it. It is not the first time that I am being told that, to be fair. I guess if he likes it, then I should be happy.
Thank you so much, guys, for your emotional support, feedback and advices. I know that I don't know much about you guys, and have never met you in person before, but come to think of it, if I do not have your support, I'd probably be extra angry and upset, and might just jeopardize this awesome thing I have going for me
It'd be terrible and awful!
Argh, I miss him so much, and I just look forward to see him again, and he did mention about wishing that I would not be busy this weekend with my family, or else he would have invited me to Bali anyway. Which I found to be so sweet and made me smile so much, inside and out.
For those who are celebrating Hari Raya / Eid today, I wish you all happy times and a good Hari Raya Aidilfitri! And yes, I am an atheist, but my family isn't... so yep, I just gotta go with the flow and just join in the festivities. To me, it's a day where I celebrate the good times with my family and to see my distant ones, and bond with them. I think for most, it means the same too, but with more meaning than just that, I bet.
Still, it's a day to celebrate love, family, and friendship and I cherish the loved ones that I do have now.