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Everyone has got this problem, when you have so many things to say, but you dunno how to put it into words. Or even write it down. Some of those things could be as simple as, I like really tall guys. And tough ones like, I want to fuck you.

It's not like I want it to happen to me, but there are some moments in my life when I just wanna say that, and then take off. But it just feels like it needs to be said, or else I feel so incomplete.

Life is so short, yet I keep holding back doing whatever I want to do. I want to smoke a pack in just one evening and see if my throat's fine, but I haven't the time. I want to smoke a stick in a non-smoking area and watch the officer come get me. I want to purposely get an F in one of my subjects and watch my own reaction, and others'. I want to ruin myself, and see if I really have what it takes to just get back up on my feet and start over.

You know, things like that. Everyone wants to do some things they know they can't do. Like how I really love standing next to really, fucking tall guys, but it's not so easy to talk to them, cuz I'm just 5'6.5"?

That half an inch still means a lot to me. I just wish I could be 5'7".

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